26 Kasım 2009 Perşembe

Almost finished

Yes! 5 months have been pasted! Incredible and amazing! If I wanted to partition these months it will be so easy:
August - Holiday
September - Introduction
October - Questioning & Regretting
November - Conceding & Hard Working
December - (Expected) More hard working ...

Now I'm writing some of the stuff that will finalize most of my works the course because there is no final exam. Nevertheless, I do have two final exams one from 505 and 344 (ehhh!) And still have to finish two projects and one assignment. I learnt a lot and explored both myself and revealed another 6 months of my future. My expectations and decisions are starting to take more shape and I'm so glad for that.

I'm flying to New York on 20th December and I have no doubt that holiday is going to be a great energy refill for me! More fun and work will be waiting for me in Vancouver. I can't believe that now I have spent the same time as in my exchange. If you'll ask me, I probably had chance to do only 25% of things this time compared to 2007. Next term I'm expecting courses to be more balanced! Will seee! I'm guessing that I won't be writing here until January.

Happy new year! Happy 2010!!

15 Kasım 2009 Pazar

16-19 Nov: menu of the week

-linguine bolognese
-banana &berry milkshake
-kurufasulye [hopefully will make some tomato pilaf]
-spaghetti with prawns

14 Kasım 2009 Cumartesi

A must-have list of a typical grad

  1. big chunk of ice cream - there should always at least one while depressed with work
  2. pack of tea or coffee - for sleepless night before deadlines
  3. pasta - for cooking during the sleepless nights again
  4. addictive tv series - there is always one although you won't need it
  5. pair of extra glasses - in case being out of lenses and throwing last one
  6. good friend outside of school - when life sucks, you don't want to see anyone from school
  7. emergency market - to buy something late night such as pack of cigarettes, coke, ice cream, coffee
  8. lots of photos of loved ones - to keep yourself sane and reminding a backup plan of going back home
  9. place to drink on friday nights - fridays are always best for drinking
  10. headache pill - you never know when you need it

will add few more if found necessary.

12 Kasım 2009 Perşembe

Ambulo: Walkabout Phase II

Our project presentation of course CPSC544 Phase II. Our presentation is also recorded. I will try to post that video as well.

11 Kasım 2009 Çarşamba

Can't control my hands

I guess I am swelled up around these days so that I can not hold myself writing on a paper or here! However this time it is somewhat different. I feel like my hands are aspiring to express something, but my mind can not control them and I can't write something meaningful.

I watched the movie 'Sweet November' on the tuesday night after cooking some meat and later two chocolate soufflés. It was an emotional movie for me and sometimes I lost myself in that perfect world. After few hours watching movie, I was still in its spell that I didn't realized it was too good to be true. I never met people like Sara who can pull you out from an augmented reality and show you what you are truly capable of. She was totally an extraordinary person but not real. She had principals, pride, strength and patience -she was also very good looking but this has got noting to do with it's reality- but ....

I was going to end this sentence but I believe I am too young to complete it. I hope I'll never be able to complete it because I do still want to believe in Sara. Life is too short to wait, and to fast grasp all.

I seriously want and need to go somewhere where no one can reach me as well as I can contact them at least for a year. I know that this will only slowdown life in my eyes and will not change anything. So why do I want to do it then ..?

Maybe I should also consider keeping this blog private?

10 Kasım 2009 Salı


Rafting photos arrived at last ! This was probably 2 months back... Marine Drive Event which I initially registered Shailen and Gordon too but they got some health problems later on and missed this great trip. The water levels were pretty low but it was still a fun experience. I do still keep the clay I took from Chilliwack.

9 Kasım 2009 Pazartesi

Today and Tomorrow

reading: elBlli from Ferran Adrian, humble pie from Gordon Ramsay
listening: The Mirror Conspiracy

Green Beans
White beans - kurufasulye
Bulghur pilaf
Caponata [recepie]
chocolate soufflé
something with chicken
ginger bread cookie

5 Kasım 2009 Perşembe

What a year!

2009 is almost ending and it was been hell of year even now. Where did i left and where is it now?

I left Koc IUI after my graduation [13 Jun 2009] and had a amazing , wonderful graduation present. A trip to France, Barcelona and Italy. Me and Deren went to places that we had read in our ARHA 322 course, and take a little sun break at southern France which was one the best places I have ever been. During the mid of summer we came back and I started to prepare for Canada. It was interesting that some people were more exited about my going back to UBC than me! I guess it was something I wasn't 100% sure too. Anyway! I landed to Vancouver in mid August and luckly found a residence at marine drive. Went to Seattle to see my sister for weeks and come back to school.

So far, it has been really busy full 2 months. I remember sleeping in the office few days or even staying up all night at dorm. It was something I am used to do but it gets harder every time. And now I also have responsibilities to my students that I'm TA'ing. So it is important to be awake during all day. I'm still working hard(for myself), learning really interesting stuff and increasing my skills in different areas (like team work)! Overall TA'ing and invigilating exams is so much fun, classes and projects require really hard work and long working hours. Furthermore, if I also want to accomplish or add some other values on my own it gets really hard. But I believe that all this work is going to pay off and I'll remember my these hard days as something I wanted and liked to do.

During my 3 moths here I also realized that I wasn't a lonely tiger. My days with better relationships with my family , friends and Deren were effecting my whole day or even weeks. It was something that I wouldn't even believe few months ago. My emotional state wasn't also effected by friends and family but also by me. I bought my first chef knife during my second month here and started to find happiness and relaxation while cooking. I was a great way disconnecting myself from my assignments troubles and even depressions. It was something I deeply desire and wanted to learn more. While weather was shining I was going to save-on-foods to buy groceries almost couple times a week. But now its harder for me to find time for that.

I don't know why this monologue is named 'what a year' eventhough we still have two months. As an intelligent guess it might be caused by starbucks release of Christmas cups.

I still do like to drink good wine , having some nachos with interesting beer, chatting with extraordinary people about crazy ideas and our shared knowledge, cooking for myself and for people I like to know more, working (reasonable hours) and learning. UBC, Vancouver, London, Turkey is still sometimes punching me and making me smile at the same time! Life is still worth living and exploring and most of the time enjoying if you are willing to!

hope to stay connected
au revoir